Sometimes I try and lose myself
Category: Grief
Placation – September 22, 2021
Tear me down, by my side You stood And then you left Tell me what I am supposed to think, Do It was you Who broke me And built me up Not to be me But what you want Isn’t who I am any longer And here I sit Shocked into stillness On loop Begging … Continue reading Placation – September 22, 2021
Flabbergast of Love – September 20, 2021
Sometimes It hits me in the face Hard Knocking me out Offended At all she put in And the nothing She got out What is a legacy Without a name A whisper amongst The breeze Was that my job I’ve been carrying so long I’m bloated And ready to gush Set her free I will … Continue reading Flabbergast of Love – September 20, 2021
Lusting – September 11, 2021
The moments I feel you Closer to me Than I am to myself Are the wholest I have ever been It brings me A high No drug could touch And therefore I am an addict In your midst When you love me Like you do
September 13, 2021
Blowing through my mind The keys on a piano run The warm bows That fall softly On my strings Withdrawn And wondering I can’t tell you Where this will end But the rustling That happens Swallows me whole As we beat together
The Space Around Us – September 6, 2021
You say you love me And I don’t doubt that But I think there has to be something more than love There has to be a place we exist And no one else… A plain Where we intersect
August 13, 2021
When you go I will disintegrate And all the little pieces Left of me Scattered Seem to make more sense Than the whole world
Missing – August 31, 2021
I wake up Somedays Missing her Beyond Anything That could be imagined Missing The days I learn little trinkets Of her existence Missing The delusion That keeps her perfect I will always long For someone I never knew And sometimes that is the hardest Bit of everything Missing the pride That might never have been … Continue reading Missing – August 31, 2021
Dead and Gone – August 6, 2021
Watching the tips of dead flowers Shimmy when they are told A pastel white butterfly Flittering by Putting a stamp on summer’s Sultry and dripping Days…
August 9, 2021
I am that little girl Waking up It hasn’t changed Closing my eyes It hasn’t changed Through the days So many things Creeping in And out I am that little girl Sitting and waiting Forever For You
Dreamsicle Hypocrisy – August 3, 2021
I swear I don’t Hold on To things Blinding Myself To letting Them go Never looking Over my shoulders Bounding into fields Leaving marks Picked up As I remember All I’ve lost Time and time again Things I’ve put down And smiled at Filling my belly Night after night Never enough Flying past you Always … Continue reading Dreamsicle Hypocrisy – August 3, 2021
Inside Out – July 28, 2021
A tear As a glimmer Sliding over my cheek Just for a second A slight moment A tickle Running at a pace To be felt The entire way
July 22, 2021
My state of abeyance Floats between worlds Standing tall and pretty While I choke And crawl
Singular – July 10, 2021
The inescapable longing Left Tightens in the chest and Sometimes escapes the lips Dreary Far beyond any day’s darkness Found At the end of a rural escape Bringing no solace It settles in your bones Turning you incapacitated At the most inopportune times Left all by yourself It’s a part of you now No other … Continue reading Singular – July 10, 2021
Mesmerizing – July 15, 2021
Soft And distant Full of something I am not How do they do it Smoothly Trespassing across the street Lights flying through the Empty sky Somewhere It’s fulfilling Suffocating The last bit of umpf I have Used To understand A life I do not live Because what else is the point If I cannot take … Continue reading Mesmerizing – July 15, 2021
Lineation – July 7, 2021
Etched in your mind Are memories You can’t help But see From time to time
July 6, 2021
Loot. Lines mute clouds. Tonight.
Obelus – June 22, 2021
I feel her Floating around me Dragging on my coat tale Never too far Beyond This place Waiting And loving Until the tears Turn into buckets each time I feel her warmth In early July
Hint of You – May 11, 2021
Your leg pressed up to mine A brush of your hand as you walk by The smell of you floating on the wind Eyes glimmering, a spark of love Caught from over there No words Nothing special Just the hint of you Is All I need
Hypodermic View – March 17, 2021
I hold my breath Until these temples begin to throb Floating on the surface Right in front of you
DoRee MelNic 