Tag: death

Standing Still – December 28, 2025

The light was a hue of red, it had turned the sky pink, and the snow melting on the ground followed suit. I lost myself standing in the open doorway in the early hours of this December day. A cool breeze held me captive and played in my tangled morning hair. My senses were at … Continue reading Standing Still – December 28, 2025 →

Grief’s Lucidity – August 20, 2025

There was no grief in the beginning. It was just absence. A nothingness, I guess there were twinges from other peoples glares. I wanted them to stop. The eyes to turn away; because maybe, they would see what was really in front of them. A broken, confused, tired little girl who wanted to be anyone … Continue reading Grief’s Lucidity – August 20, 2025 →

Alexithymia – May 1, 2025

Can you see it Essence of atoms given off Particles making us take the next step After step, after step Each drip stained, magnified Foot prints washed over It’s there With all it’s intensity Quietly, shifting

Anastomosis – March 20, 2024

They have no idea Their soft skin And the way laughter bounces around I am a dark cloud A dark cloud Only because I know I know the light that shines on them Because I know The dark without the light Would not exist If not for the other https://youtu.be/-9t_SwPN31s?si=cnXIqeahXmWIqgIx VOILÀ - LYRICS Listen to … Continue reading Anastomosis – March 20, 2024 →

Brevity – January 2, 2024

A glimpse out the glass door One leaf was up on it’s edge doing cartwheels across the frozen tundra It had a bounce to it’s step While the buttery morning light illuminated it’s glory Losing my mind in the time it took to go it’s path Laying motionless in the short winter grass Traveling with … Continue reading Brevity – January 2, 2024 →

Talking to you…December 30, 2023

Happy 72nd birthday mom (pretty sure, yes, 72). I guess I have been thinking about you on your birthday for the past few years…it’s felt good to remember. As good as it can feel. The tears still come, and all too often, I love you. ~~~ Talking to you…Today 12/30/2019 Today is my mom’s 67th … Continue reading Talking to you…December 30, 2023 →

We All Lose Something Now and Again – December 15, 2023

I’m sitting somewhere In-between Life begging at the knees But I don’t want to go Stripping me down And whispering All of these things I don’t want to go It dances and sings In a warm glow I still don’t want to go It laughs and tickles Tempting me so To go… There is too … Continue reading We All Lose Something Now and Again – December 15, 2023 →

Talking to you…6/13/20

PARTS AND PIECES The Red Dodge I had to be four, because my mom picked me up from preschool that day. I remember the building: hot paper, glue, ink, and the bold scent of must. My classroom was in the basement of the town’s Parks and Rec center. Other than the smells, I only remember … Continue reading Talking to you…6/13/20 →

Broken – June 10, 2020

You’re right It all stems from my mom dying Every single moment of each day I cannot escape this fact Things stare me down My mom died This is who I am My mom died I have always been My mom died ~~~ I guess it’s fair to say I am only Just now Letting … Continue reading Broken – June 10, 2020 →

Talking to you…6/9/20

Brain blurp... I’ve been told, I’m living in the past, but I feel I’m more in the present than I have ever been. How in the world is that even possible? I am finally letting myself sit with these feelings, these emotions I’ve carried with me for oh so long, but I’m right here. It’s … Continue reading Talking to you…6/9/20 →