Talking to you…A real big mind fuck 1/30/20

I just realized, yeah that’s right, exactly right now. It’s not about what my mom wants anymore Actually, that should have stopped along time ago I have been trying to be the person I thought she wanted me to be My entire life. I wanted her to be proud I tried to live up to … Continue reading Talking to you…A real big mind fuck 1/30/20 →

Talking to you…1/15/20

PARTS AND PIECES Boggle As I remember, I was at the kitchen table with the boggle box in front of me. I lifted the lid as the suction held on and slowly released. I had it all set up in no time. My mom and I loved word games, we were going to play. As … Continue reading Talking to you…1/15/20 →

By a Thread – January 14, 2020

You surely remember You died that day too I think in a way we all did But life went on And here I am Trying to remember The things put down Only if I knew How impossible it would be To pick them back up. Yes, I’m sad she is gone But that is not … Continue reading By a Thread – January 14, 2020 →

Never Alone – January 9, 2020

Feel me Graze your skin, And know that I am here. ~~~ Feel me Slide down your neck, And know that I am still here. ~~~ Feel me Jump in your throat, And know that I am here. ~~~ Feel me Come from behind The tiny hairs Everywhere Raise up To remind you I am … Continue reading Never Alone – January 9, 2020 →

Talking to you…I Am no writer 1/10/20

I am no writer, but I write. I write and I write, I spill every morsel for something, for some reason, for someone. There is nothing that’s stopping me or making me continue. I’ve tapped into something that makes no sense. But still, I listen, and I do. At this point, organized thoughts bring me … Continue reading Talking to you…I Am no writer 1/10/20 →

Bouncing – December 28, 2019

The darkness Holds my hand Bouncing in circles ~~~ Quietly screaming For me to let go ~~~ Closing in Breathing Out ~~~ Frolicking And dancing ~~~ Spinning in circles Plucking my brow To shape the mood ~~~ Out of the darkness I let go ~~~ As the circles bounce Away So far away ~~~ Gone … Continue reading Bouncing – December 28, 2019 →

Talking to you…1/8/20

PARTS AND PIECES Our Lake There was a small lake in our backyard. One we would swim in during the summer months. I remember my mom floating and falling asleep under the warm blanket of the sun once. I’m not sure what woke her, but that night she was red. Now that I’ve introduced you … Continue reading Talking to you…1/8/20 →

So Many Stars – January 6, 2020

Pacing Looking out All the meat Passing by Feeling my heart thump faster Even though I’m standing still Ten licks forward, ten licks back Nowhere to go Yet, I’ve been here before Eyes I see so many eyes Drooping and wide open I wonder... Too much rattling of the brain Makes the Legs tire From … Continue reading So Many Stars – January 6, 2020 →

Wasted Things – January 6, 2020

I have seen things Been through things I cannot undo things All because I trusted you. You dropped me, Emotionally Half ass loved me Only for who... Sometimes I catch you staring And question... Would words, Help me break free, Letting you in To see the real me. But in the end, Words are just … Continue reading Wasted Things – January 6, 2020 →

Talking to you…Outos Ego 1/3/20

A blogger, who gives so much and asks nothing in return created this video for me. The music chosen was one of her favorites. I cannot thank Outos Ego enough. Missing my mom, and wondering what our relationship might have been like today. CLICK HERE: Short video clip by Outos Ego Thank you, Outos Ego, … Continue reading Talking to you…Outos Ego 1/3/20 →

What’s Left, In Front of You – January 1, 2020

See me; Through my tears Past the nit picky Into the deep Down Deep Valley Beyond the shadows Where the light creeps Up Hitting and Cracking the Layers Upon layers Of cut down Rings Left standing alone Ignored and forgotten Until everything Is all gone And people wonder why There is nothing to breathe Nothing … Continue reading What’s Left, In Front of You – January 1, 2020 →