Stripped Down – January 19, 2023

The light twinkles In a reflection Of all the things I have been and want to be It’s lonely looking out the door Once you’ve decided to leave Walking over the ashes Of everything that stood in the way Spitting and thrashing Hating it all Really hating it all Pounding Always in the same spot … Continue reading Stripped Down – January 19, 2023

Let it Go Off on a Breeze – January 5, 2023

The hush of grief Can be found in the sorrow The dichotomy Of a loneliness Everybody touches Waiting in-between moments To be recognized Remembered The little things dropping away Melting into feelings Resurfacing Where everything dances I mean absolutely everything When I start to see it… I open my eyes And Let it go off … Continue reading Let it Go Off on a Breeze – January 5, 2023

The Whole Me – December 19, 2022

This space is sacred to me. It is where I come to visit and release my feelings. Feelings burrowed so deeply, you who have happened upon this blog, bear witness to a grief and life I have kept close to my heart, always. You have become my confidants, my keepers. Thank you, you who started … Continue reading The Whole Me – December 19, 2022

Worlds Collide – December 18, 2022

It’s only fair, I let them in. But if I didn’t say anything, no one would ever know… I’m going to do it, I want them to know. Then, why is it so hard? Because these two things have never existed together. They don’t know each other. But they do. They are one in the … Continue reading Worlds Collide – December 18, 2022

Talking to you…Antihistamine 11/4/22

I have a lot of time, on days like today. My eyes get blurry and unfocused when they have to pump me full of medicine to stop the reaction from the other medicine. So, I annoyingly drift between sleep and awake. Seven hours to be exact. The nurse that visits when the pump needs to … Continue reading Talking to you…Antihistamine 11/4/22

Incognito – September 12, 2022

I had become Incognito To myself For so long The strands of my hair No longer curled in any direction Convincing me of all the things and thoughts I did not need Or want Or care about Not knowing myself good enough To realize a touch That burned My faltered ego And left me speechless … Continue reading Incognito – September 12, 2022

Opus – August 17, 2022

The little fragments of moments When a thought creeps in Is usually when it hits the hardest. On levels you’ll never understand But you could… If maybe, you opened your mind But we’ve been through this a thousand other times And yet, you decide to put me in my place Where I’ve always stayed But … Continue reading Opus – August 17, 2022

Talking to you…Rabbit Hole 5/2/22

I was sitting here, in my partially comfy hospital recliner. Half awake and half in a drugged out Benadryl stupor when a woman’s voice came over the loud speaker for the whole hospital to hear. It sounded very scripted and “robot-esque”. Can you hear it? “FIRST RESPONDERS - MEDICAL EMERGENCY - CLINIC - FIRST FLOOR … Continue reading Talking to you…Rabbit Hole 5/2/22

A Blind Heart’s Silhouette – March 4, 2022

The dark light Silhouettes my arms, so I know they are there The touch that falls to the ground Walking With steps Dragging on… Past each and every moment I could have stopped And let you in Flown home to your call It ticked Past my bedtime I dreamt of you And dream of you … Continue reading A Blind Heart’s Silhouette – March 4, 2022