This space is sacred to me. It is where I come to visit and release my feelings. Feelings burrowed so deeply, you who have happened upon this blog, bear witness to a grief and life I have kept close to my heart, always. You have become my confidants, my keepers. Thank you, you who started … Continue reading The Whole Me – December 19, 2022
At night When the clouds surf Low I’ll be sure to remember Just How much I don’t know...
PARTS AND PIECES The Red Dodge I had to be four, because my mom picked me up from preschool that day. I remember the building: hot paper, glue, ink, and the bold scent of must. My classroom was in the basement of the town’s Parks and Rec center. Other than the smells, I only remember … Continue reading Talking to you…6/13/20
The unbalanced begins to creep in Something I cannot fix Looms On that cloud Outside my window Tried a million ways to Let it go...
You’re right It all stems from my mom dying Every single moment of each day I cannot escape this fact Things stare me down My mom died This is who I am My mom died I have always been My mom died ~~~ I guess it’s fair to say I am only Just now Letting … Continue reading Broken – June 10, 2020
Brain blurp... I’ve been told, I’m living in the past, but I feel I’m more in the present than I have ever been. How in the world is that even possible? I am finally letting myself sit with these feelings, these emotions I’ve carried with me for oh so long, but I’m right here. It’s … Continue reading Talking to you…6/9/20
Dark clouds are in my way, I hope soon to reach the light of day.
I’m up, again And here go my thoughts Slipstreaming along I’d love to share them with you But we’ve been here before And for some reason Attempt after attempt I still cannot get the words To come out right I love you But there’s that part of... You mean well But when I listen Your … Continue reading Forget Me Drug – June 1, 2020
I will not burn down Your city I will not throw trash in Your street I will not yell and scream at You Or harm You I will stand up In Your moment of need I will speak with my hand on Your shoulder I will cry with You For what We have lost Are … Continue reading Let Me Stand Up – May 29, 2020
I’ve never felt so empty My entire life Oh wait yes I have You weren’t there Then Either
Nope not there Not even close I can’t do it I can’t even see it Think straight forward What a joke Bullshit
When we know we’re close When it’s just around the bend Knocking, knocking We fight Or we give in
It is hard When the dark finds you And chooses Not To let you go The shadows In the clouds Are closer than you think Waiting With their wretched claws Have you ever seen them Have they touched You Melting in To who You Thought you were Reaching Scratching and biting Until there is nothing … Continue reading Into the Shadows of the Clouds – May 22, 2020
What quiets the soul I’ve been searching Smooth it And gloss it over She will brave through Mercy
Shhhh Don’t tell them It’s me These words are not mine I’m hiding out And it’s just fine
Let’s take a walk As twilight encroaches Passing by All things grand Life circles around us Floating like fireflies You and I And the moonlit sky
Squeaking Something that matters That really makes a difference Watching the sun set and rise Strictly metered ~~~ It’s the mundane That always Takes my breath away
Just enough To see The movement Forward Never toggle Too long In one place To let It Start seeping Into The depths Of Your Heart
This then that Then that Then this Spinning Spinning Never winning Thank you ladies and gentlemen
My finger print Has slipped away I reached today And touched the sky Left part of me Way up high