Tag: feelings

Lullaby – September 25, 2019

Lost in the roll of these hills Needling to find the words So, so far traveled. What will they amount to, If I cannot? Sitting down Facing you Is all I’ve ever wanted, To go away. The uncontrollable trembling Overtakes me While I fight To find these words, So precious A lullaby to my soul.

Never Had A Choice – September 15, 2019

Resenting everything, after. Life seemed slow and cruel. It ate at me, Spitting me out Bit by stale bit. You left me high and dry. One thing, I revisit often now, Is that you had the choice to move And I would never. Your jovial trips and carefree holidays Will always Haunt me. Because I … Continue reading Never Had A Choice – September 15, 2019 →

All the Beautiful Colors – September 22, 2019

Subtle and pastel, Spreading across the dusky sky. Silky and gentle, Rolling into your eyes. Filling up reflections In the panes of glass. Sitting and waiting For the lone meanderer To notice, For a second, As time stands still. A choreography is done Amongst the whispering clouds. Dancing alone Feeling life spread through, And in. … Continue reading All the Beautiful Colors – September 22, 2019 →

The Looking Glass – August 31, 2019

It chooses to come and go, As it pleases. Shaping every morsel of my being. It’s hold, It’s harsh grasp, Threatens Anything good I’ve created. Observing this happen From the top of somewhere There is no stop button I can reach. Only to watch it play out Through the looking glass.

Go On – September 19, 2019

Break lights Glowing red Closer than I think. Reaching out Afraid to shout Been shut down Too many times. Can’t let go Like you did So long ago. At last, I realize I’m on my own. I look away To turn my cheek, And you’re right there beside me. Does it always, go on and … Continue reading Go On – September 19, 2019 →

I Would Cry – September 17, 2019

I did not cry. Nope, not the day she died, Or at her funeral, Or the service held at the house. No, I did not cry, During our final hug goodbye. I did not cry. But if I were given the chance, One more opportunity, I would humbly Show her all my tears, and Share … Continue reading I Would Cry – September 17, 2019 →

Talking to you…Acceptance 9/17/19

When grief came upon me. I searched, and I searched for an exit. My way out, had to be just around the bend. The more I searched, the more I yearned for this closure, the more anxious I became. I wanted to know when I could put it to bed? Through walking this path, I've … Continue reading Talking to you…Acceptance 9/17/19 →

My Mom – September 10, 2019

She is... both alive in me And gone to this world. ~~~ She is... My baggage I will never drop And always pick up Teetering on the verge of sanity. ~~~ She is... The wind That plays in the leaves That jostle the grasses To make the most beautiful Whoosh. ~~~ She is... The voice … Continue reading My Mom – September 10, 2019 →

Blue and Smokey – September 12, 2019

A swollen old tree, Blue and Smokey. Where a knot, extended Splits into the ground. A Home, a muse. Beauty not built, But shaped by opportunity. It holds a place Living a lifetime Right off the wayside. Do you notice, Or would it pass you by?

Talking to you…Something changed 9/13/19

Something changed, and I felt it right away. Those words, IT’S YOUR OWN DAMN FAULT. The sting jump starting my heart. Choking on the exhaust bellowing from under the hood. I felt it, the choice, given to me in an instant. I can’t sugar coat the depth of the pain those words coming from your … Continue reading Talking to you…Something changed 9/13/19 →

Red – August 14, 2019

A funny little dance As I watch by chance Bouncing and flirting To down right deserting Spastically Slapping And taking their bows Staring out my back windows. Between each slat The branches do play The leaves maroon and cold The sun kissed tint of red, bold.

Suppress – August 16, 2019

Suppress me, You don’t want to dress me With all my wounds. ~~~ One day you’ll find me erased And wonder why You never saw me fly. ~~~ Inside a flash, I learned To be who you wanted. I played the game right Everything stayed the same, Because I didn’t put up a fight. ~~~ … Continue reading Suppress – August 16, 2019 →

In My Mind – September 5, 2019

What do you see when you close your eyes, he says. I see you. What do you feel When you close your eyes, He says. Your hands on my skin. What do you think When you close your eyes, He say. A thousand thoughts Of you.