Talking to you…Brain Tumor 12/11/19

These thoughts come to you straight from March 10, 2019. Although, I feel them so clearly each and every single day.

^^^

I don’t ever remember you talking to us about it.

I was scared to ask about it.

It turned into the forbidden fruit, 

I was not tempted. Or brave. Or I didn’t want to know the truth.

Everything hurt too bad.

I pretended you were fine, I pushed you away.

An Innate sense told me I had to take care of myself.

I loved you so deeply, I couldn’t process it.

Then I woke up, and you’d been gone for twenty-eight years.

12 thoughts on “Talking to you…Brain Tumor 12/11/19

      1. Oooft! It’s when you’re taken by surprise like that – that’s the worst.
        Sorry I’ve been a bit absent of late – difficult time of year for me – but I’ve still been reading and enjoying your work regardless 🖤🖤

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      2. Yep, in a weird way, I’m learning to embrace those moments. It has actually started to allow me to feel closer to her…it hasn’t always been that way.

        Never apologize, we all have to do what we have to do. I am so sorry you’re feeling it so heavily…I wish there was a a prompter that told people to just stand down when we needed our space, or opposite to tell them when we needed love or a shoulder to lean on. It would make things so much easier…I think?!

        I was just letting you know I was happy to hear from you ❤️! Many hugs to you.

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      3. Thank you. It’s so comforting to know people are there for you – even if they are perfect strangers! 😁

        I know what you mean about embracing those moments. I do try but more often than not I’m still blindsided by them. Perhaps it gets easier with time…

        I wish there was a prompter for so many things. How I’m supposed to navigate this situation, how others are supposed to help.

        All I know is that this last year I’ve lost so much, its hard to know where to start to rebuild – if indeed I even want to.

        Writing is still helping with the darker days and reading the words of others – such as yourself – also prove as validation and inspiration.

        I look forward to more 🖤🖤

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      4. At this point, I prefer the perfect stranger…lol 🙃.

        Nah, I hear ya. Getting blindsided sucks. I guess I’m just becoming more ok with feeling the way I do about things…maybe that’s the essence of time?

        After so much struggle I’ve come to the conclusion, I need to create something new, and leave what was exactly how it stood. I can always go and visit it. I believe in time you will find what works best for you too…and until then, just keep putting one foot in front of the other…

        I’m so glad I found writing, and that you have too. It has helped tremendously…in airing my dirty laundry (feelings) somewhat anonymously ;). Thank you for being a part of my journey.

        And I always look forward to your writings, as well!!

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