You’re right It all stems from my mom dying Every single moment of each day I cannot escape this fact Things stare me down My mom died This is who I am My mom died I have always been My mom died ~~~ I guess it’s fair to say I am only Just now Letting … Continue reading Broken – June 10, 2020
It is hard When the dark finds you And chooses Not To let you go The shadows In the clouds Are closer than you think Waiting With their wretched claws Have you ever seen them Have they touched You Melting in To who You Thought you were Reaching Scratching and biting Until there is nothing … Continue reading Into the Shadows of the Clouds – May 22, 2020
Shhhh Don’t tell them It’s me These words are not mine I’m hiding out And it’s just fine
Don’t go Don’t drift away Stay ~~~ It’s been too long Far, far too long ~~~ Would it have mattered The innocence it took The ugliness it planted ~~~ To have screen shots stuck In my head ~~~ Of the things I’ve seen Things I’ve witnessed ~~~ Long before I knew where it would end … Continue reading Oblivious – April 30, 2020
PARTS AND PIECES Tree Hammock I remember it was cold, burning cold. There might have been snow on the ground. The wind was blowing, I can still feel the sting against my cheeks. Over the years the picture has faded, but the feelings have remained. Finding shelter was my first priority. As a child my … Continue reading Talking to you…4/14/20
Nobody And nothing Surrounds me Still, I cannot breathe
In those moments She peeks around the corner I take a step back And hold my breath Hoping the tears Might pass me by
These thoughts come to you straight from March 10, 2019. Although, I feel them so clearly each and every single day. ^^^ I don’t ever remember you talking to us about it. I was scared to ask about it. It turned into the forbidden fruit, I was not tempted. Or brave. Or I didn’t want … Continue reading Talking to you…Brain Tumor 12/11/19
There is this little piece Deep inside That sits and waits, Broken. My whole life Too busy pretending I’m okay To notice It was there The entire time. Sitting and waiting, Exploding. Into tears, Raging. Most days I feel it, I know it’s there, I can swerve out of the way, But it always finds … Continue reading I Sit and Wait – October 23, 2019
~~~You can find me playing in the leaves~~~
A selfless soul, Or is she? Bathed in arrogance Wanting all the glory Of the story. To be placed around her neck, A medal of gold, As unseen treasures unfold.
Am I losing my mind? Can’t keep it straight Thoughts come and they go Fugitive moves Further from myself Briefly grasped Until I just let it go.
It’s over, I’m done Disregard me Pushed aside. I don’t feel it anymore What you try and hide. I am me You should stop and see It’s pretty great here. I’m alone, But free.
Lost in the roll of these hills Needling to find the words So, so far traveled. What will they amount to, If I cannot? Sitting down Facing you Is all I’ve ever wanted, To go away. The uncontrollable trembling Overtakes me While I fight To find these words, So precious A lullaby to my soul.
Subtle and pastel, Spreading across the dusky sky. Silky and gentle, Rolling into your eyes. Filling up reflections In the panes of glass. Sitting and waiting For the lone meanderer To notice, For a second, As time stands still. A choreography is done Amongst the whispering clouds. Dancing alone Feeling life spread through, And in. … Continue reading All the Beautiful Colors – September 22, 2019
I am sorry I am broken, a piece of me lost. I’m sorry I can’t find it. Have you had enough? Me too. Can’t take anymore? Me too. I’m so sorry for the trouble, Please stop shattering what’s left. I’ll keep trying to pick up the pieces, If I can. Alone, The way it’s always … Continue reading I’m Sorry – September 3, 2019
This tear creeps down my face, slowly. As it reminds me Of you.
My eyes too unsteady, As it hits. Focus, blurr I try again Closed then opened Rubbed raw Blinking World is shaky Untamed Unknown Spaced out Trying to snap out Ending at a compromise Tilt slightly to the left And I am somewhat free
Hey, uhhhh hi. I'm kinda stumped for words, which I thought was utterly impossible. But it happened. Back to back things happened, and I'm stumbling. Interestingly enough, it's not a rare occurrence, it's happened on several occasions since I started this journey. But it still throws me for a loop. Sits me down, and takes … Continue reading Talking to you…Not alone, even if just for a moment 8/26/19
A pureness Untouched, and bare. My innocence Painted the room Naive. Expectations floating Above my head. Caught and filleted, Rugged, Atop a flat cutting board. That summer night, Staring up at the nighttime sky. I asked, why. With a muddle of thoughts passing me by.