At the hardened yet tender age of eleven, I wanted her to die. I wanted it to be over. To be free from her pain, my fears. But, instead, what time has shown me is I desperately wanted her to live. I hesitate to write about this, any of it really. Because I’m afraid I … Continue reading Talking to you…D-Day 7/3/20
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Talking to you…6/13/20
PARTS AND PIECES The Red Dodge I had to be four, because my mom picked me up from preschool that day. I remember the building: hot paper, glue, ink, and the bold scent of must. My classroom was in the basement of the town’s Parks and Rec center. Other than the smells, I only remember … Continue reading Talking to you…6/13/20
Talking to you…6/9/20
Brain blurp... I’ve been told, I’m living in the past, but I feel I’m more in the present than I have ever been. How in the world is that even possible? I am finally letting myself sit with these feelings, these emotions I’ve carried with me for oh so long, but I’m right here. It’s … Continue reading Talking to you…6/9/20
Talking to you…4/14/20
PARTS AND PIECES Tree Hammock I remember it was cold, burning cold. There might have been snow on the ground. The wind was blowing, I can still feel the sting against my cheeks. Over the years the picture has faded, but the feelings have remained. Finding shelter was my first priority. As a child my … Continue reading Talking to you…4/14/20
Talking to you…water 4/9/20
I hope you don’t mind, Charlypriest... This feels like a story, an intense affair with crying. It was awhile ago, and birthed in the comments back and forth between the two of us...strangers and it meant nothing...but seems to be so much more. I couldn’t let it go. A song was shared: Addict With a … Continue reading Talking to you…water 4/9/20
Talking to you…Killdeer 3/8/20
I heard a Killdeer this afternoon. I saw a lady bug crawling on my windshield. The breeze huffed through the trees, then died down, and again. I stopped and looked up at the lady bug, once. She was still. I think she was holding on. Of course, she was a she. Duh. And now she’s … Continue reading Talking to you…Killdeer 3/8/20
Talking to you…2/29/20
PARTS AND PIECES Bosom My mom used to call her breasts, bosoms. So of course, I’ve been told I would toddle around the house calling out Buzi buzi buzi buzi When I was hungry. Not sure if this is something I recollect, Or just a memory placed. I’ve always thought it was a funny word. … Continue reading Talking to you…2/29/20
Talking to you…A real big mind fuck 1/30/20
I just realized, yeah that’s right, exactly right now. It’s not about what my mom wants anymore Actually, that should have stopped along time ago I have been trying to be the person I thought she wanted me to be My entire life. I wanted her to be proud I tried to live up to … Continue reading Talking to you…A real big mind fuck 1/30/20
Talking to you…I Am no writer 1/10/20
I am no writer, but I write. I write and I write, I spill every morsel for something, for some reason, for someone. There is nothing that’s stopping me or making me continue. I’ve tapped into something that makes no sense. But still, I listen, and I do. At this point, organized thoughts bring me … Continue reading Talking to you…I Am no writer 1/10/20
Talking to you…1/8/20
PARTS AND PIECES Our Lake There was a small lake in our backyard. One we would swim in during the summer months. I remember my mom floating and falling asleep under the warm blanket of the sun once. I’m not sure what woke her, but that night she was red. Now that I’ve introduced you … Continue reading Talking to you…1/8/20
Talking to you…Ocean eyes 12/19/19
When I experience a moment, I must share it. I already loved Alicia Keys, but I know now I'm a fan of Billie Eilish. I felt this moment...they sang the shit out of this song, in the most gentle way. Ocean Eyes by Billie Eilish & Alicia Keys I've been watching youFor some timeCan't stop … Continue reading Talking to you…Ocean eyes 12/19/19
Talking to you…Brain Tumor 12/11/19
These thoughts come to you straight from March 10, 2019. Although, I feel them so clearly each and every single day. ^^^ I don’t ever remember you talking to us about it. I was scared to ask about it. It turned into the forbidden fruit, I was not tempted. Or brave. Or I didn’t want … Continue reading Talking to you…Brain Tumor 12/11/19
Talking to you…A wise woman 12/9/19
When holiday traditions bend and fold, change is ever present on the fastly approaching horizon. A woman, was once told by her father, “you just don’t get it.” In which the wise woman replied, “I’m sorry you feel that way.” They soaked in the silence. Then the woman spoke once more, “Maybe, you don’t get … Continue reading Talking to you…A wise woman 12/9/19
Talking to you…parts and pieces 12/4/19
I was looking back through some of my older writings, as one should do from time to time. I do this to see where I was, and how far I’ve come (or haven’t). I found this single blurb, written over a year ago, and I am really feeling the truth of it today. So I … Continue reading Talking to you…parts and pieces 12/4/19
Talking to you…11/15/19
From my discovery of the song, Falling Slowly, I came across the movie “Once”. It’s a love story that is completely ordinary, but out of this world at the same time. Life can feel so mundane unless you choose to see the beauty in the little things even if they only last for a brief … Continue reading Talking to you…11/15/19
Talking to you…Nothing is, as it seems 11/13/19
So, to those of you who have been following along with my Nothing parts 1-5, I have one more verse I’d like to add to finalize the poem. However...I have a favor to ask of each of you first. My daughter drew a sketch (a few months back) that holds the exact feeling visually I … Continue reading Talking to you…Nothing is, as it seems 11/13/19
Talking to you…Trampoline 10/30/19
This song takes me there...Trampoline, by SHAED Picture by ARI Link to music video - http://www.youtube.com/watch Lyrics I've been havin dreamsJumpin on a trampolineFlippin in the airI never land just float thereAs I'm looking upSuddenly the sky eruptsFlames alight the treesSpread to fallin leavesNow they're right upon me Wait if I'm on fireHow am I … Continue reading Talking to you…Trampoline 10/30/19
Talking to you…My mother’s closet 10/28/19
Beside her bed, Behind a lanky Door Perched love On every shelf. Stepping in and Pulling the string I can still feel the tension, And then A deep click and grind, Illuminating life. Squatting in the corner Filling the entire space Alone, Sitting cross legged as Time ceased to move. No one bothered to find … Continue reading Talking to you…My mother’s closet 10/28/19
Talking to you…Little Girl 10/4/19
I wrote a stream of consciousness poem the other day in response to a post from The Alchemist Studio. For those of you who are grieving or struggling in some way or another, this is such an opportunity! Release... I want to share my poem with you, in hopes you’ll check out A Vase of … Continue reading Talking to you…Little Girl 10/4/19
Talking to you…NO…NO…NO! 9/30/19
Ahhhh! I just saw this :/. California to pay college athletes! apple.news/AoGmytqHHSceLo4CazW2FiQ I don't post much, or at all about athletics, but this is going to royally turn college athletics upside down! WTH?! Scholarships pay athletes. I don't even want to watch this play out, but I will...
