I quit. I’m done. No more of this, It’s over. I look up, But to the rear. Seeing the distance I’ve traveled, Hitting the gas. Tires howling To the next stop, Wherever that may be.
Category: Grief
Fallin Down – June 17, 2019
The rain keeps on fallin. Fallin like tears, from the clouds. The rain keeps on fallin down.
Talking to you…I followed her up those stairs 6/28/19
I remember that day, So very long ago. Stuck in my head, A blink of an eye, It appears Right in front of me. ~~~ I followed her up the stairs, Like you always told me to do. She was screaming And yelling, I did not understand. Did she know this would be her last … Continue reading Talking to you…I followed her up those stairs 6/28/19
Unscathed – June 20, 2019
To free my grasp, I’ve held on so tight. My jaw is clinched, Always tapping My own shoulder, A reminder to release. For a moment My grip loosens, And my teeth are unscathed.
A Whimper – June 20, 2019
Startled, Eyelids spring open, Slowly closing into a haze. A touch unknown. Half exposed, The darkness continues Beyond the curtains. What caused this stir? Life lived with her? Synapses fired me To a stooped attention. I did not see her face. It was, The after, That brought me here. Weeping Into, the silence Broken, By … Continue reading A Whimper – June 20, 2019
Put It Away – June 16, 2019
Put it away, Pick it up. ~~~ You have no place, You are a pretty face. A holder of spots, A keeper of quiet. Not to be heard. ~~~ Pick it up, Put it away.
Spinning – June 17, 2019
Fast and furious A blurr Whizzing by I am The eye Watching from the center Holding it all together Dare I take a step Pulling me into A space Where the unknown plays A song Misunderstood By the anger That sits on the top shelf Watching and waiting to Start the whirlwind That protects The … Continue reading Spinning – June 17, 2019
Hovering – June 15, 2019
Nestled in, It was her Hovering in my head. Right there. I could feel her hand on my back, The smell she wore. As my eyes blinked closed I felt her dress lightly Brush my leg, And she was gone. In an instant, Forever.
To Let Go – June 12, 2019
The sadness that penetrates, Steam rises from your skin. Letting go Of something, Right in front of your face. You reach out to touch it, But it’s no longer The same. As it once was, To you, By choice. Bleeding out for too long The clot has begun to form The sticky Gelatin like substance … Continue reading To Let Go – June 12, 2019
Traverse – June 8, 2019
The edge Traversed Is narrow. The wind blows at your back, Pushing you forward. Vacillating, You obey. Disillusioned At the audacity Used In front of your face. You could jump Ending the fear. All things. Instead, you continue To be pushed Along the edge. Not strong enough To wear your thoughts On your sleeve. As … Continue reading Traverse – June 8, 2019
Pain – June 9, 2019
You tell me, Turn my pain into strength. It can only be strength. Because if it’s not It’s nothing, It’s death. Pain is always strength, To those who live through it.
Shake – June 10, 2019
Drifting, As the cloud Passes by. The bird teetering Through the breeze. The gentle shake that comes From the leaves, Soothes the aching soul. Unopened eyes, And rambling To the melody Sung. Refuge found In everything That was, And is to come. But right now, As the clouds stand still In their place. Birds chirping … Continue reading Shake – June 10, 2019
Spinning Tunnel – June 5, 2019
Untamed, tunnel spinning. The fairgrounds of grief. Dark And lonely. The murmurs coming from The end, calling us To the opening Across the way. The path unkind, So close. Arms stretched out Never quite there. Finger tips scratching The surface, Always present Slipping and clawing for traction. Shouting out silently For everyone to hear. The … Continue reading Spinning Tunnel – June 5, 2019
At Sea – March 28, 2019
Dipped my toes in the deep end, Searching for the unknown.
Dear Daughter – June 4, 2019
Your light, Has brought me back To were I left Her. ~ Lying in the dust Blowing away Grain by grain. ~~~ Your light, Brings me Right here, And now, Tied to then. ~~~ Your light, Let’s me see Through to my heart ~ Where I have been hiding Like an angry child, Unfound. ~~~ … Continue reading Dear Daughter – June 4, 2019
Fizzle – May 21, 2019
Why do we relive things, Rehash them, Over again. In hopes, at some point The madness will fizzle.
Fish – May 16, 2019
I’m a fish flopping out of water. On the street for everyone to see. Catch me Hold me firm. Cut me open And filet me. Always more Fish in the sea.
Obligatory Love – May 31, 2019
Working the room, A Filial beloved Drowns in The must permeating. ~~~ Building, Layers on skin. Blinding eyes To truth. ~~~ Sitting, solitary. An empty room surrounds me. The chill of metal On my legs Pressing into my hide, As one, we sit in place. ~~~ White walls Evade emotion. Fluorescent bulbs, No windows Seal … Continue reading Obligatory Love – May 31, 2019
Senses – April 3, 2019
I have been asleep at the wheel, Driving in the dark, Hands tied behind my back, Feeling my way through life, Senses turned off. Or so I thought.
Time Warp – April 12,2019
Eleven years. Together. Twelve and a half weeks. After. Ten weeks. Later. Worlds start spinning. Twenty-nine years have passed. Since I last saw you.
DoRee MelNic 