Tag: family

Pity Me – March 13, 2019

Pity me. Don’t pity me. That look in your eye tells me a story. Who you are, but not what you want to be. Open your mouth and live. Pity me. Don’t pity me. The energy you send is sharp, But full of want. Pity me. Don’t pity me. I have to look away. Moving … Continue reading Pity Me – March 13, 2019 →

Talking to you…Tuesday 3/12/19

For those not acquainted with the womanly side of puberty...this may get a little awkward for you. But, it's ok! I made it through, and so can you! I'm just going to dive right in, I got my first period a month after my mom died (blush), and my dad did the only thing he … Continue reading Talking to you…Tuesday 3/12/19 →

Polite (In My Dreams) – March 10, 2019

I want to feel it, so badly. The lightness of life she lived. I want to breath it in my blood, and sweat it out my pours. She lived for that day, when she awoke it was all that mattered. The heaviness I carry, is a dull knife. What’s left is ragged and ugly. It’s … Continue reading Polite (In My Dreams) – March 10, 2019 →

For Her – March 9, 2019

As she Goes, self-doubt on high, My chest puffs out, for her. As she goes, feeling small, I sit up straight, for her. As she goes, carrying the weight on her shoulders, My arms extend toward the sky, for her. As she goes, and does not believe, My spirit dances around, for her. She will … Continue reading For Her – March 9, 2019 →

Distracted by Death – March 9, 2019

I'm scared to death, of death. Not my own. But for him, or for her, or her, or him. All of them live just a moment away. Each day, my heart tightens with fear. They leave on a bus, clinch. They leave in a car, wa-bam. They leave on an airplane, a bike , or … Continue reading Distracted by Death – March 9, 2019 →

The Poker Hand – February 19, 2018

You both were dealt the worst hand in the world. Four different suits.  Colors across the board. Not a single pair, and you didn’t throw in. You played the hand, discarding all but one in hopes the flop would be kinder. Looking for pairs, a three of a kind, at the mercy of the stack … Continue reading The Poker Hand – February 19, 2018 →

It’s Ok – February 9, 2018

I just want you to know... It’s ok, to cry out loud. It’s ok, to yell and get angry. It’s ok, to not want to. It’s ok, to remember. It’s ok, to speak their name. It’s ok, to ask questions. It’s ok, to be happy and smile. It’s ok, to just be. It’s ok, to … Continue reading It’s Ok – February 9, 2018 →

Mom – January 31, 2018

I think of you when the wind blows and ruffles the grasses. That is very often. Memories fade over time, But the feeling of you has always remained. Warm, kind, caring, my protector.  This, I’m grateful for. Many days and nights, I’ve longed for you. Wished you could share my joys, love me through my … Continue reading Mom – January 31, 2018 →

Where Am I Now – September 30, 2018

The before and the after,  or the somewhere in-between.  Tickling emotions buried deep underneath. Simmering to the surface,  as the air turns thick and unclear. Stuck to who I once was, Soul searching and lost.

Attempts – January 29, 2018

I tried so hard…for you. I put my trust…in you. But now here I am, Right back where I started. Fighting so hard to feel whole. To feel the love through the anger. But you’ve imprisoned me in this space of perpetual conflict. Again, and again I reach out for you. It falls silently at … Continue reading Attempts – January 29, 2018 →