Let me feel for you So that you don’t have to Let my tears roll away your pain So that you don’t have to Let me consume every morsel that you cannot So that you can keep living Don’t you worry I’ll be fine Let me
Tired and tingly Zooming Faster and faster Caught in this shitshow Of who knows what Or where it began Flying through blinks Never stopping Or slowing Whizzing But feeling it all Every single drop Or ounce Of love And hate Awkward and chest puffing Not knowing Where it’s going to end Trying to take it … Continue reading Time Warp – November 4, 2019
You knew I was broken, But you did it anyway. ~~~ Your boyish charm Mistaken for grown up ideas. The blanket you spread, A moments reach from being saved From You, But we were left alone To our own childhood misfortunes. Took what you wanted, What I was willing to give. To be seen or … Continue reading Broken – October 21, 2019
~~~You can find me playing in the leaves~~~
I wrote a stream of consciousness poem the other day in response to a post from The Alchemist Studio. For those of you who are grieving or struggling in some way or another, this is such an opportunity! Release... I want to share my poem with you, in hopes you’ll check out A Vase of … Continue reading Talking to you…Little Girl 10/4/19
DISTANT, The haze of stadium lights HOVERING Above my eyes. Alien shaped PUFFS Illuminate the clouded sky. So far, But right here. STIRRING my imagination Of what lies ahead, TONIGHT. Dreaming above my psyche In the haze of stadium lights WITH YOU.
It’s over, I’m done Disregard me Pushed aside. I don’t feel it anymore What you try and hide. I am me You should stop and see It’s pretty great here. I’m alone, But free.
Open flashes Sitting behind a window Endless and untouchable. Wanting and yearning Nothing to fill the gap you’ve left. A permanent void. ~~~ I could write a thousand lines, I could feed myself all the bullshit About our perfect family, But I cannot anymore The illusion is bygone. Eaten by the knowledge Of allowing my … Continue reading Empty Illusion – September 15, 2019
Leaves me And picks me up Puts me down And tosses me around, But Without it I’d be so high strung Hooked to the roof top I’d be hung.
Lost in the roll of these hills Needling to find the words So, so far traveled. What will they amount to, If I cannot? Sitting down Facing you Is all I’ve ever wanted, To go away. The uncontrollable trembling Overtakes me While I fight To find these words, So precious A lullaby to my soul.
Break lights Glowing red Closer than I think. Reaching out Afraid to shout Been shut down Too many times. Can’t let go Like you did So long ago. At last, I realize I’m on my own. I look away To turn my cheek, And you’re right there beside me. Does it always, go on and … Continue reading Go On – September 19, 2019
She is... both alive in me And gone to this world. ~~~ She is... My baggage I will never drop And always pick up Teetering on the verge of sanity. ~~~ She is... The wind That plays in the leaves That jostle the grasses To make the most beautiful Whoosh. ~~~ She is... The voice … Continue reading My Mom – September 10, 2019
You never know, I tell you. The light, and then the dark. It’s not clear, It won’t be, Until it is. And hopefully, That doesn’t leave you too late.
The summer’s final heat is Plump and uncomfortable. Leaving us Soaked in our own coolness Distracted and searching... ~~~ All of the hours And minutes spent, It’s daunting to Think about the billions of seconds Thrown over our shoulder. Left far behind Each day. The sweetness shared With the quick lasting hugs, The little fires … Continue reading Billions of Seconds – August 14, 2019
I’d rather it be me, than you, You ask why. Because I know what’s on the other end. An intensity, A tightness That won’t let go. It grips you, And holds you hostage Silent to its prey. I’d rather it be me, than you. But wait, Then it’d be you.
My eyes too unsteady, As it hits. Focus, blurr I try again Closed then opened Rubbed raw Blinking World is shaky Untamed Unknown Spaced out Trying to snap out Ending at a compromise Tilt slightly to the left And I am somewhat free
Hey, uhhhh hi. I'm kinda stumped for words, which I thought was utterly impossible. But it happened. Back to back things happened, and I'm stumbling. Interestingly enough, it's not a rare occurrence, it's happened on several occasions since I started this journey. But it still throws me for a loop. Sits me down, and takes … Continue reading Talking to you…Not alone, even if just for a moment 8/26/19
This, right here. This very spot you’re looking at Is mine. This is mine. Completely and unequivocally mine. I don’t have to share it, But with you I will Because This is mine. And I, Just I, Want to see it shine!
I shout through my teeth, As my throat begins to burn. The lightning flashes in my eyes, I am approaching full throttle. Sip your breathes, And walk away. Turn your cheek, And be careful what you speak. The words might ring true, But what good do they do?
Revolving, echoing The beauty sustained, In lifetimes lived. Housed in this small Vessel from the earth. Cradled, since forever. No worries or discomfort. Raw edges Basking in the ground Waiting it’s turn To be seen. Plucked from its burrow, Fully exposed, Bringing life, Once again, To what’s already dead.