Category: Grief

I Would Cry – September 17, 2019

I did not cry. Nope, not the day she died, Or at her funeral, Or the service held at the house. No, I did not cry, During our final hug goodbye. I did not cry. But if I were given the chance, One more opportunity, I would humbly Show her all my tears, and Share … Continue reading I Would Cry – September 17, 2019 →

My Mom – September 10, 2019

She is... both alive in me And gone to this world. ~~~ She is... My baggage I will never drop And always pick up Teetering on the verge of sanity. ~~~ She is... The wind That plays in the leaves That jostle the grasses To make the most beautiful Whoosh. ~~~ She is... The voice … Continue reading My Mom – September 10, 2019 →

Suppress – August 16, 2019

Suppress me, You don’t want to dress me With all my wounds. ~~~ One day you’ll find me erased And wonder why You never saw me fly. ~~~ Inside a flash, I learned To be who you wanted. I played the game right Everything stayed the same, Because I didn’t put up a fight. ~~~ … Continue reading Suppress – August 16, 2019 →

In My Mind – September 5, 2019

What do you see when you close your eyes, he says. I see you. What do you feel When you close your eyes, He says. Your hands on my skin. What do you think When you close your eyes, He say. A thousand thoughts Of you.

I’m Sorry – September 3, 2019

I am sorry I am broken, a piece of me lost. I’m sorry I can’t find it. Have you had enough? Me too. Can’t take anymore? Me too. I’m so sorry for the trouble, Please stop shattering what’s left. I’ll keep trying to pick up the pieces, If I can. Alone, The way it’s always … Continue reading I’m Sorry – September 3, 2019 →

Experiencing Death – September 1, 2019

I’d rather it be me, than you, You ask why. Because I know what’s on the other end. An intensity, A tightness That won’t let go. It grips you, And holds you hostage Silent to its prey. I’d rather it be me, than you. But wait, Then it’d be you.

Measure Up – August 28, 2019

I just don’t know, Do you? Measuring up is serious business, And yet to be done By anybody still searching For that one instant, Maybe two Where they feel alive And accepted. That jolt of serotonin Helps take you somewhere, You feel. You measure up For just that heartbeat, And then It’s gone Just as … Continue reading Measure Up – August 28, 2019 →

The Breeze Blows By – August 16, 2019

Alive and soft Over my skin. In my mouth, She swirls And pushes. Brushing down my arm, Letting me feel the secrets Of her journey Comforting the past. My cheeks and lips Perk up to feel the love. I breath her in, Fresh dirt and bumble bees. A lull lures me To listen, Chirping and … Continue reading The Breeze Blows By – August 16, 2019 →

In My Own Way – August 12, 2019

I want to be peaceful, Feel something serene. Be the calm in your day That lets you say, ‘In the end, It’s going to be okay,’ But that’s not me. It’s a struggle to be free. Especially, because, It’s always been Me versus me.

Observant- August 12, 2019

My eyes paint a tinged picture of what I see. My heart beats a murmured song of what I know. My hands crumple the very thing I long for. My mouth stammers, as I watch the chance pass by. All the while, my ears are taking everything in.