Category: poetry

The End, and Now Beginning – April 13, 2018

Disgrace. I am not, I did not. Forgive. Hard, but necessary. I always have. Conform. Yes, but no. You did what you did. You owe me no explanation. I don’t owe you one either. I’m pulling myself out of the rut I’ve dug. I said it out loud. I am proud, I am brave, I … Continue reading The End, and Now Beginning – April 13, 2018 →

The Reed – September 28, 2018

Strong and firm. Roots stretching deep into the dark, rich soil. Always feeling the weight of the world, Consumed with the swirling breath of air wrapped up around them. Tossed and twisted to other’s pleasure. The Reeds are whipped endlessly. They battle, time and time again, to stand up tall. The whirlwind synchronizes their dance, … Continue reading The Reed – September 28, 2018 →

The Poker Hand – February 19, 2018

You both were dealt the worst hand in the world. Four different suits.  Colors across the board. Not a single pair, and you didn’t throw in. You played the hand, discarding all but one in hopes the flop would be kinder. Looking for pairs, a three of a kind, at the mercy of the stack … Continue reading The Poker Hand – February 19, 2018 →

It’s Ok – February 9, 2018

I just want you to know... It’s ok, to cry out loud. It’s ok, to yell and get angry. It’s ok, to not want to. It’s ok, to remember. It’s ok, to speak their name. It’s ok, to ask questions. It’s ok, to be happy and smile. It’s ok, to just be. It’s ok, to … Continue reading It’s Ok – February 9, 2018 →

Mom – January 31, 2018

I think of you when the wind blows and ruffles the grasses. That is very often. Memories fade over time, But the feeling of you has always remained. Warm, kind, caring, my protector.  This, I’m grateful for. Many days and nights, I’ve longed for you. Wished you could share my joys, love me through my … Continue reading Mom – January 31, 2018 →

A New Day – March 3, 2019

The smell of the Earth brewing, Under the dead grass. Muddy snow, cracked ice. Fresh with the scent of dirt, laden with winter's toll. Promising to continue the cycle. Birds chirping, hidden in a haze from the melt. Again, we awaken with hope. Wet and soppy, shivering afresh. Reborn as the Earth emerges, alive. The … Continue reading A New Day – March 3, 2019 →

Stuck – March 16, 2018

It hurts, that you’re not strong enough. It hurts, that you can’t let yourself. My heart needs to heal, and I keep falling back. Back to the place where I need you. I fight the urge to be my own person, I struggle pulling away. I am so stuck to you, it’s hard to release … Continue reading Stuck – March 16, 2018 →

A Familiar Tap – January 11, 2018

The ebb and flow of where I live, Has taken its toll. Just when I have wrapped it up, and ready to throw it away. I feel the familiar tap on my shoulder. It’s on repeat, I understand. It’s there to remind me. Give me strength to forgive, move forward, accept what’s happened, and cry.

Shuffle – February 16, 2018

I shuffle through the memories of my past. As the pages turn, the smell in the air is ripe and bold. Heavy with the scent of her. I feel my heart thumping, The tears start to roll. Cannot get back what I once had, I want it so bad. He sees me suffering, or does … Continue reading Shuffle – February 16, 2018 →

Torn – January 30, 2018

I have been torn in half. My first family gone, the second built in its ruins. The “ungrateful” word bounces around my head. “spoiled little brat” slaps me in the face. I fight back. But, my mom died. Ripped in two. Split by my everyday thoughts. Thoughts that won’t stop knocking on my door. So … Continue reading Torn – January 30, 2018 →

Life – 2017

I feel it loud and clear. The world speaks in sentences. I am yours. I am beautiful. I make noise, can you hear it? I am loud! I am a whisper in your ear. I am what you make me. I am hopeless. I see the good. I see the bad. I feel the pain. … Continue reading Life – 2017 →

My Protector – January 29, 2018

I try. My effort fails. You fail. You were not there. You left me by myself. You continue to leave me behind. I’ve waited for you for too long. I’ve finally stepped up to do the hard work. I no longer need you. I am grown, but my voice is still small. Scared to start … Continue reading My Protector – January 29, 2018 →

Attempts – January 29, 2018

I tried so hard…for you. I put my trust…in you. But now here I am, Right back where I started. Fighting so hard to feel whole. To feel the love through the anger. But you’ve imprisoned me in this space of perpetual conflict. Again, and again I reach out for you. It falls silently at … Continue reading Attempts – January 29, 2018 →