Talking to you…December 30, 2023

Happy 72nd birthday mom (pretty sure, yes, 72). I guess I have been thinking about you on your birthday for the past few years…it’s felt good to remember. As good as it can feel.

The tears still come, and all too often, I love you.

~~~

Talking to you…Today 12/30/2019

Today is my mom’s 67th birthday. This is the third year I’ve let myself remember it. This morning, I woke up to my husband asking how old my mom would have been today…to tell you the truth I’m not one hundred percent sure, but 67 is close. So here’s to you mom, I miss you more than you ever could have imagined.

~~~

Wallflower – December 30, 2020

I’ve cried before

Wept through tears

Touching the center of the earth

Where she wails with me

I feel her shiver

Unparalleled

Screaming up

With no voice

Sputtering as softly as a gasp

Never anyone

Close enough to hear

Adept and

Hard at work

I know

They’ll never hear me

~~~

Soloism – December 30, 2021

The warm tears

Swell, before they break

Leaving behind

A cool stream

Running down my face

Hiding the remnants, behind

The closed door

Just feet away

From all of life