A New Day – March 3, 2019

The smell of the Earth brewing, Under the dead grass. Muddy snow, cracked ice. Fresh with the scent of dirt, laden with winter's toll. Promising to continue the cycle. Birds chirping, hidden in a haze from the melt. Again, we awaken with hope. Wet and soppy, shivering afresh. Reborn as the Earth emerges, alive. The … Continue reading A New Day – March 3, 2019 →

Stuck – March 16, 2018

It hurts, that you’re not strong enough. It hurts, that you can’t let yourself. My heart needs to heal, and I keep falling back. Back to the place where I need you. I fight the urge to be my own person, I struggle pulling away. I am so stuck to you, it’s hard to release … Continue reading Stuck – March 16, 2018 →

A Familiar Tap – January 11, 2018

The ebb and flow of where I live, Has taken its toll. Just when I have wrapped it up, and ready to throw it away. I feel the familiar tap on my shoulder. It’s on repeat, I understand. It’s there to remind me. Give me strength to forgive, move forward, accept what’s happened, and cry.

Shuffle – February 16, 2018

I shuffle through the memories of my past. As the pages turn, the smell in the air is ripe and bold. Heavy with the scent of her. I feel my heart thumping, The tears start to roll. Cannot get back what I once had, I want it so bad. He sees me suffering, or does … Continue reading Shuffle – February 16, 2018 →

Torn – January 30, 2018

I have been torn in half. My first family gone, the second built in its ruins. The “ungrateful” word bounces around my head. “spoiled little brat” slaps me in the face. I fight back. But, my mom died. Ripped in two. Split by my everyday thoughts. Thoughts that won’t stop knocking on my door. So … Continue reading Torn – January 30, 2018 →

Life – 2017

I feel it loud and clear. The world speaks in sentences. I am yours. I am beautiful. I make noise, can you hear it? I am loud! I am a whisper in your ear. I am what you make me. I am hopeless. I see the good. I see the bad. I feel the pain. … Continue reading Life – 2017 →

My Protector – January 29, 2018

I try. My effort fails. You fail. You were not there. You left me by myself. You continue to leave me behind. I’ve waited for you for too long. I’ve finally stepped up to do the hard work. I no longer need you. I am grown, but my voice is still small. Scared to start … Continue reading My Protector – January 29, 2018 →

Attempts – January 29, 2018

I tried so hard…for you. I put my trust…in you. But now here I am, Right back where I started. Fighting so hard to feel whole. To feel the love through the anger. But you’ve imprisoned me in this space of perpetual conflict. Again, and again I reach out for you. It falls silently at … Continue reading Attempts – January 29, 2018 →

There All Along – January 20, 2018

I see now, she did try. She started sending it to me in droves, I compiled and neatly tucked it away, Not to understand the depth of what she was doing until she was gone. Her love and remembrances shout to me, Loud and clear! She didn’t forget. She remembered every day. She lived in … Continue reading There All Along – January 20, 2018 →

RUMBLE – January 10, 2018

Finally, the lock is rusted and broken. The tears come like a freight train down my cheeks, loud and unstoppable. Cemented in my heart for what seemed to be always. Free to flow like a faucet. Sometimes or most times, they creep up on me. As they still hide in the dark. Waiting quietly for … Continue reading RUMBLE – January 10, 2018 →

I Will – February 10, 2019

As the suns rays prepare to leave this Earth, I feel closest to her I sit, cozy, crossed legged and tucked underneath. I listen to their distant voices dancing back and forth, my life is still. One yells out, MOM! I am quick to answer back. Silence. He has moved on to his next task, … Continue reading I Will – February 10, 2019 →

Free – February 6, 2019

I feel most at home, alone amongst the trees. My mind wonders to thinking about life, and all that it is. Today I wonder where my mom felt most at home. Would she like to join me in silence listening to the leaves chatter in the wind. Would she want me to keep the precious … Continue reading Free – February 6, 2019 →